The morning alarm goes off. We hit snooze a few times. I sneak a little closer to Joe before we have to quietly get up together hoping the baby will sleep in just a few more minutes. I prep his lunch, making sure he is eating well. Fresh fruit, a few snacks (ok so a brownie or two doesn’t hurt), lots of water and a handmade sandwich made with his favorite potato bread. I brew coffee for two. I walk him to the door, kiss him good bye and wish him a good day at work. I go about my morning routine- start laundry, sweep the floors, attend to the dogs and if Miss Hailey is still sleeping I get my morning emails out of the way.
Today I feel exhausted. I feel off. Like I want to go back to bed or lay down and watch Frozen or Tangled with Miss Hailey. ( her favorite movies and I think I can recite all the songs now) It has been a looong week and a whirlwind of emotions. Lately I have been stepping out of my comfort zone and working hard to make change, for the better. Striving to be a better person each day- a better mother, a better wife, a better friend. Trying to do what is right for my family. This week I hung up some post it notes on the bathroom mirror of reminders of why we do what we do. To push us to work harder. To get out of bed instead of sleeping in. To chase our dreams instead of keep dreaming. To not pay attention to what others are doing and to do what feels right to us and for our family. We are risk takers and both think out of the box. Let me tell you in the wildest of ways. Everyone walks a different path in life and we are about to make our own. Make it about us. Some say if your dreams are not scary enough than you need to dream bigger. We have been doing this with some recent goals.
I know this week wasn’t what I expected or what I wanted it to be but I know next week will be better. No, scratch that today will be better. I always think when things go wrong there is a reason why it didn’t work out for me at that time. I wasn’t ready. It wasn’t meant to be. The big guy upstairs has something better in store for me. So today I am going to enjoy it. I am going to regroup and breathe. What matters most is my happiness, my families happiness and what feels right in my heart. I know this is very vague but I know a lot of readers can relate to having that feeling of exhaustion after working hard for something that they truly strive for. Whether it be for a new job, finding your true love, getting your business where you want it to be or trying to plan a family vacation. Work hard and harder to make it happen. You may fall down not once but twice. Get back up and soon you will look back on your journey and how you got there. All good things take time.
Chasing dreams is not easy but once you do get there is it quite beautiful.